I am working on a game and along with it, my own game engine. It is a fully funded project, and once complete, I intend on releasing the engine for people to use. The purpose of this project is for my own personal growth, to build something that I am passionate about, and furthering my independence, and thus while it is funded by myself, it is not without financial interest. I always saw myself building something, and I have built things, just small things. I have been held back by various struggles throughout my life, and I'm finally getting back on my feet. I'm living on disability, but that is not a future I imagined when I was younger, nor is it one that I'm satisfied with. Maybe I will always be disabled, but now I am in a place where I can FAFO! My biggest challenge is energy, and so I'm very focused on my health, and this is my way of telling you that I can only invest a little at a time into this.
Still reading? Great. I like to write or, in particular, to journal. That is one idea I had here, to journal my progress, and release increasingly more as I progress on my project. I imagine some day that this website will look nice and showcase both my game and the engine I will be building for it. I want to build a game for myself. This means that I have a vision, but it doesn't mean it isn't blind to feedback. However, I believe that not all games need to be for every person, so I will stick to my vision as I see fit. I have to want to play the game for years, because I also want to invest years of my life into it, so this is personal for me, to fill not just a void in my independence, but in my free time.
I've put a lot of thought into my game, and will continue to do so throughout development. When thinking about what I want to play, a lot of past experiences come to mind. In particular, I've always been interested in roguelikes, but haven't found one that sticks. I've played a lot of ARPGs, but also some interesting MMORPGs like Anarchy Online and Ultima Online. I often play hardcore mode on games, so dying and starting over with nothing is normal for me. This year I've enjoyed some Path of Exile 2, but not everything about it, and No Rest for the Wicked, as well as Grim Dawn. So, I'm thinking a lot about an experience similar to an ARPG, but hopefully, different from the rest, in good, interesting ways, where the game is engaging, challenging, and feels rewarding, impactful. Ah, yes, I can see the people crying in my forums on Steam already.
Thanks for reading.